Perlos išmintijimai // vidinis chaosas. Thoughs by Perla // the inner chaos

Perla is mourning 

Perla is having a hectic time after she lost all eight siblings, brothers, sisters, cousins... She lost them tragically on a cursed black Friday on 13 th of February... Since then she can not find any inner peace, she can not feal any traces of joy... she is devastated... she is feeling devastated... Near each day she is going to visit the two graves of her beloved friends... She is dreaming her beloved Markizas near each day... And the Easter is near and Perla will be, would be so so happy if Markizas would be with her near the table of Easter dinner...

Perla will spend Easter with her three female friends - Sniegutė, Teddy Bear and Kalnapilis-Medutė-Honey... but no matter of that she is feeling so so devasted... During this month she finally understand that she is not only non binary but also non-divergert - Perla has as Asperger syndrome, which complicated her / their comunication with the outside world...

Sadly Perla is remembering Jacob sometimes, Prince RIP was very similar to Jacob... She is missing all her beloved friends fellows siblings and cousins she had lost in village during that vicious day...

And yes, Perla is feeling half dead, it were moments she did not wanted to live... but somehow she wants to believe... there is a life after... and she still can communicate with her dead brothers Markizas, Pūkė, Prince, Tina, Raccon, Jonukas, Rainis, Išdykėlis in the paralel universe... No matter all inner chaose Perla believes that life is eternal and never finished after the physical death.