Eternal Liiva. 999 footsteps. Footstep 4

Gurru Gurru returned from doctors.

The diagnosis was death. And the diagnosis was incorrect. He will live. White coats triumphant. 

For how long?

Health or simple illness doesn't mean you will stay alive forever. 

Liiva wrote from Egypt. As always, his letter was without any comments.

BEING (if you will, EXISTENCE)

and was the beginning there

which i needed no more

at all 

and was not the beginning there

which i needed so badly

sky/heaven didn't care at all

no word, no rain

about my being (or existence)

i came

i didn't

i was

i wasn't

nobody cares about my deeds and thoughts

i will set up myself further from myselfishness

no more home

no more floor of lake

or sky/heaven high above

i will try to be in nowhere

(nepal kathmandu dhanyabad)

but i won't succeed

i was hard when young

now not young, not brave 

and not wise

and nothing/nobody

going into less minutes than hours less seconds than minutes